07/ 14/ 2017
Well, it’s official. I’m unemployed, folks! Since January, I’ve been dreading that word, embarrassed to say it aloud. Now that I’m at that point, it’s not as scary to say because it’s my present, and I’m trying to make the best of this time.
Between applying to and interviewing for jobs and packing up my apartment, I’ve been sightseeing in New York City. I can’t believe how much I haven’t seen. I mean, after six years, you’d think I’d have made it to all the major sights by now. But, alas, I haven’t. So far, I’ve been to Coney Island, the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island. I have a handful of sights left, which will be exciting to finally see.
Additionally, since being laid off, I’ve had some time to process and figure out how I feel. I’ve thought a lot about life and how it seems unfair, because well, it is often times unfair. I’ve learned that bad things do happen to good people. There is no “good credit” earned for going through tough times that can be cashed in later, and there is no system of checks and balances.
I know this sounds incredibly pessimistic. However, I don’t see it as pessimism, more so as a pragmatic understanding that I’m not entitled to a fair life. And in realizing this, I’ve found a much deeper sense of peace and acceptance during this stressful time.
I have some decisions to make over the next couple of weeks, which I will share more about as I figure out what’s next. Been praying for lots of guidance!
Wishing you warmth and light this summer.
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