10/ 03/ 2015
It has been a very full month. Between changes at work and challenges in real life, there was a lot to balance. It was like the universe wanted me to jump into some new roles: being a boss, a lover and a patient. New territory, that’s what September brought me, and it had the potential to be too much to handle.
The month reminded me of this dance piece I understudied in college. Tricky from a technical perspective, the work was nonstop with the dancers moving in tandem throughout, following intricate floor patterns. The title was fitting, The Only Way Through Is Through, because it felt that way, like going into battle and having to push on no matter what. I remember learning that work and understanding it from that perspective. In the span of a 5-day residency, I was trying to learn 3 different parts, all the while struggling to keep up with the physical demands of the work. It was intense, and there was a lot to cover in a short period of time.
Sometimes, all you can do is push on. There’s not always time to make sense of what’s happening. But that’s the thing: you’re not always guaranteed a moment to pause, to reflect on what’s going on. It’s about learning to rely on your gut and letting it guide you in those moments.
That’s what September was all about. Trusting that I knew at heart what to do, how to stay calm or listen better. Saying it simply, I learned that the gut knows best.
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