Here we go!

After entering graduate school, I developed a nasty habit. Instead of writing the way I wanted to, I made it my goal to write how I thought a graduate student should write. Not surprisingly, my work wasn’t great.  It made me and my research sound unsure, timid, and overly verbose. Seeing that my professional goal is to become a writer, this was problematic.

When I moved to New York City I realized that this bad writing habit was going to have to go. As I pondered on how to remedy this problem, I realized what the heart of the issue was.  I had lost all confidence in my writing, so much so that I was too scared to let my true self be heard.

It’s all so similar to one of my favorite heroines named Alice.  In Lewis Carroll’s Through the Looking Glass her new comrade, the Mad Hatter, says to Alice, “You used to be much more…”muchier.” You’ve lost your muchness.” Alice then spends the rest of the story finding her self-confidence and courage (or her muchness).  Once she does, Alice is finally able to battle it out with the Jabberwocky.  Of course she triumphs because she finally found her voice.

Currently I am Alice.  As I writer, I have lost my muchness, which is why I’ve started this blog. I am saying no to outside editors, no to boundaries, no to second guessing, and yes to instincts.

I hope you’ll be a part of my journey.

 

 

 

 

 

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