Journal Entry Inspired by Meredith Monk

A couple weeks ago, I wrote this journal entry after seeing musician and choreographer Meredith Monk’s latest show On Behalf of Nature. I thought I’d share it with you:

It’s a feeling–one that comes after experiencing something really magical. For me, the sensation is rare, following a killer performance or after finishing an incredible book. It’s hard to articulate, but it’s such a powerful reaction. It sticks with me, leaving me reeling for a couple days.

It’s also a sneaky feeling. It blind-sides me every time, and I never know when it will hit. But, when it does, the sense of wonderment is unbelievably familiar, like a habit I forgot I had.

The high never gets old. It’s empowering, a jolt that pushes me onward. I feel like I’m standing unafraid, in front of a crowd — sounding my warrior’s cry — ready to take on the world.

It’s instances like these that make me grateful to be alive. a fire ignites, and I can do anything, and confidently be no one else but me. I love it, not just because it feels sweet, but it makes me feel real, a part of the world, and like someone who actually wants to be in it.

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